who said life was easy? wasn't me.

these last couple of months haven't been the best for me....has it been my fault? i don't know, maybe yes, maybe no. job issues, money issues, and friend issues do i have to deal with it all at once??? i guess since its me, all three are messing with me big time. i don't claim to have all together every single day of the week, but i try to. the strength in my legs decrease everyday, even with physical therapy, slowly turning me into a shut in. it doesn't help with looking for a job because that is the first thing they see. if i could rewind my life and edit out my disability, i'd be fine, but i can't. i know employers are suppose to be equal opportunity, but not with me. I can be well qualified and still not get it because of what they see, not what they get to know. don't even get me started on friends...you'd think some will have come to visit me since I lost my job...negative. money and friends go together like peanut butter and jelly, can't have one without the other. i am not saying that is true with all of my friends, but true for some. it's just been a hell of a couple months, i can't even describe how unhappy i've been...not depressed just very unhappy and disappointed. maybe i should take up some form of boxing or karate, so when i need to release in an unviolent (made up word) way. i'm getting a headache which means i need to eat, i will stop it here. i'd appreciate any advice. thanks for listening.

day 12...hey! i just heard that song!

i was just listening to this song in my office, finishing up some work and as i was leaving for the day, i got into my car and my cd player started, and lo and behold, it was the same song i was listening to in my office! #winning just because i love this song....here it goes!

can't wait till the official video comes out for this song!

later: former friend? yeah i do have one!...day 13

day 11....soundtrack to my life

i only have one song that could fill this particular day, and its a lesson everyone could learn....here it goes!

from the mo' money soundtrack...still love this song!


tomorrow: day 12....hey! i just heard this song!

day 10....i'm a groupie!

today's post....a song from my favorite band/group...i had many growing up, like new edition, troop, swv, soul 2 soul, and the list goes on. the question is, should i go old school or new school? and i chose (drum roll please).........

this song makes me wanna do the running man every time i hear it. it still gets major play on my ipod. makes me wanna create an old school playlist. maybe later, until then, enjoy!


tomorrow: day 11...soundtrack of my life

day 9....i'm hopeful, yes i am, hopeful for today...

i am trying to think of a song that really inspires me...one that uplifts me and believe in a better day. i am gonna go old school with this one, this one is has a great message.

i still love this song, and always will.

day 8....dangerously in love

ok, my day 8 song is to remind of my very first love...i would reveal his name but i'm not gonna!! this song always popped into my head when i would read one of his mushy letters or the random flowers left at my door, made me think of him...welp, enough of that mess, here it goes!

tomorrow's blog - day 9....and i'm hopeful, yes i am

day 7....summer breeze makes me feel fine...

day 7 is a song that reminds me of the past summer....the past summer i listened to alot of drake, rick ross, and jay-z...so i'm thinking, why not try incorporating all 3!!! give me a second, and i assure you this will work.

 

yup! three videos! it works for me, but will it work for you?