who said life was easy? wasn't me.

these last couple of months haven't been the best for me....has it been my fault? i don't know, maybe yes, maybe no. job issues, money issues, and friend issues do i have to deal with it all at once??? i guess since its me, all three are messing with me big time. i don't claim to have all together every single day of the week, but i try to. the strength in my legs decrease everyday, even with physical therapy, slowly turning me into a shut in. it doesn't help with looking for a job because that is the first thing they see. if i could rewind my life and edit out my disability, i'd be fine, but i can't. i know employers are suppose to be equal opportunity, but not with me. I can be well qualified and still not get it because of what they see, not what they get to know. don't even get me started on friends...you'd think some will have come to visit me since I lost my job...negative. money and friends go together like peanut butter and jelly, can't have one without the other. i am not saying that is true with all of my friends, but true for some. it's just been a hell of a couple months, i can't even describe how unhappy i've been...not depressed just very unhappy and disappointed. maybe i should take up some form of boxing or karate, so when i need to release in an unviolent (made up word) way. i'm getting a headache which means i need to eat, i will stop it here. i'd appreciate any advice. thanks for listening.