who said life was easy? wasn't me.

these last couple of months haven't been the best for me....has it been my fault? i don't know, maybe yes, maybe no. job issues, money issues, and friend issues do i have to deal with it all at once??? i guess since its me, all three are messing with me big time. i don't claim to have all together every single day of the week, but i try to. the strength in my legs decrease everyday, even with physical therapy, slowly turning me into a shut in. it doesn't help with looking for a job because that is the first thing they see. if i could rewind my life and edit out my disability, i'd be fine, but i can't. i know employers are suppose to be equal opportunity, but not with me. I can be well qualified and still not get it because of what they see, not what they get to know. don't even get me started on friends...you'd think some will have come to visit me since I lost my job...negative. money and friends go together like peanut butter and jelly, can't have one without the other. i am not saying that is true with all of my friends, but true for some. it's just been a hell of a couple months, i can't even describe how unhappy i've been...not depressed just very unhappy and disappointed. maybe i should take up some form of boxing or karate, so when i need to release in an unviolent (made up word) way. i'm getting a headache which means i need to eat, i will stop it here. i'd appreciate any advice. thanks for listening.

day 12...hey! i just heard that song!

i was just listening to this song in my office, finishing up some work and as i was leaving for the day, i got into my car and my cd player started, and lo and behold, it was the same song i was listening to in my office! #winning just because i love this song....here it goes!

can't wait till the official video comes out for this song!

later: former friend? yeah i do have one!...day 13

day 11....soundtrack to my life

i only have one song that could fill this particular day, and its a lesson everyone could learn....here it goes!

from the mo' money soundtrack...still love this song!


tomorrow: day 12....hey! i just heard this song!

day 10....i'm a groupie!

today's post....a song from my favorite band/group...i had many growing up, like new edition, troop, swv, soul 2 soul, and the list goes on. the question is, should i go old school or new school? and i chose (drum roll please).........

this song makes me wanna do the running man every time i hear it. it still gets major play on my ipod. makes me wanna create an old school playlist. maybe later, until then, enjoy!


tomorrow: day 11...soundtrack of my life

day 9....i'm hopeful, yes i am, hopeful for today...

i am trying to think of a song that really inspires me...one that uplifts me and believe in a better day. i am gonna go old school with this one, this one is has a great message.

i still love this song, and always will.

day 8....dangerously in love

ok, my day 8 song is to remind of my very first love...i would reveal his name but i'm not gonna!! this song always popped into my head when i would read one of his mushy letters or the random flowers left at my door, made me think of him...welp, enough of that mess, here it goes!

tomorrow's blog - day 9....and i'm hopeful, yes i am

day 7....summer breeze makes me feel fine...

day 7 is a song that reminds me of the past summer....the past summer i listened to alot of drake, rick ross, and jay-z...so i'm thinking, why not try incorporating all 3!!! give me a second, and i assure you this will work.

 

yup! three videos! it works for me, but will it work for you?

day 6....this is for my bff!

today is the day that i must dedicate a song that reminds me of a best friend...and i believe i have the best song to describe this friend, its our rollout song!!! collins park 2010! picking up random and abandoned cell phones and checking the texts, going by denny's to check out the candy-painted cars, also pointing out  the hugest fro in the middle of a movie and laughing hysterically...those were the days...more to come i hope! this one's for you!

day 5...its the song that never ends...

here i am i made it to day 5 (yay me!!!) and now i gotta figure out which song gets stuck in my head. gosh can this decision be any more difficult!?!? but i think i have narrowed it down. taking you to neo-soulville with this one...
i sing it everyday, because i listen to it between 2-3 times a day in my office. its a wonderful collaboration of al green and john legend, abSOULutely love it!

day 4....calming edition

here i am on day 4 (go me!) and i have to come up with a song that i listen to that calms me down...i have a couple, but only one sticks out in my mind...i could put this on repeat and listen to it over and over again. when i seem agitated, i listen to this...when i'm upset, i listen to it...well here it goes!

day 3...its the weekend!!!

i am in day 3 of my 25 songs, 25 days countdown, and this one, i am very honored to do. day 3 has to do with a song that reminds you of your parents...both of my parents are wonderful people, and just about sacrificed everything for me, to make sure i didn't go without. i wish that in the future, i will instill the same qualities in my children, that my parents did with me. i love you guys :)

i missed day 2, so here it is...

day 2 - a song that reminds you of an ex-boyfriend or ex-girlfriend...ugh do i even wanna go into this? there are too many songs and i have to choose one??? i guess i can. my last ex and i did not leave each other on the best of terms. he was the total opposite of me, which should have been a red flag, but me being stupid did not want to believe it. well, here goes nothing...

25 songs....25 days....lets see how this goes....day 1!

well...i fell victim to it too, I am doing 25 songs in 25 days....1st up, day 1: a song from your childhood...i could go any which way with this...do i do the care bear theme song? some old school hip-hop? maybe some cyndi lauper? well here goes nothin!

friends...how many of us have them?

as of lately, not that many...i mean, i use to. when a friendship can be going so well, it also can be going downhill. i have gone through many friendships in my past 28 years and can i say that i still have a true friend? not sure about that, i'll get back to you on that. i know that a good friendship is based on good communication, and sometimes, communication can fail. its not that we do it on purpose, it just sometimes happens. missed phone calls, missed text messages, even missing "hang out" attempts, those type of things happen and all we can say is, "oh well, maybe next time". maybe you're going through something personal that you think your friend won't understand, so you do what you do best, keep it bottled inside, but sometimes thats not enough.

maybe there is something wrong with me, if so, that is just something i have to work on.


well, on to the next one...